Seems like forever since I’ve done a Friday fitness update! It been a crazy month so far, including an incredible trip to Israel and so much more. Today however, we are talking about my first marathon. Happening in 9 days people. NINE DAYS.
It has been a tough month for training. I didn’t run in Israel–between the schedule, heat, and overwhelming desire to sleep because of the time difference it didn’t happen!
I have been running though. As much as my schedule lets me and I haven’t missed a long run! The Staten Island Half Marathon was the last race until the big one and it was not easy–but great training and I totally could have kept going when it was done so I took solace in that.
All week I’ve been trying to figure out what I was going to write today. Would I write an excited post? Would I write a nail biting nervous nellie post? Would I write a post about how I am resisting the urge to hide in a closet on November first and conveniently emerge on November 2nd?
Truth is I am all of those things. I vascilate between happy, scared, anxious, nervous pretty much every 20 seconds. My awareness level is on 120% because even on the off chance that I’m not thinking about it I have friends, family, coworkers who are asking me how I’m feeling pretty much every minute.
Then, I read this answer to someone asking about first marathon jitters (screen grabbed with permission) warning-language:
Which made me cry, a lot, because I know I’m freaking out a lot and 99% of it is internal. It’s hard to tell people you are scared out of your mind and might have bitten off way more than you can chew. These words though, made me feel invincible and I know that all I have to do is try.
I know I will finish. I don’t know what time I will do it. To be honest I walked the last 2 miles of my 20 miler 2 weeks ago. Im not sure if this means I will walk the last EIGHT of the marathon but I will finish.
As a reward for running 26.2 I will be getting my first tattoo!! This is major. For a girl who doesn’t drink (at all), never smoked, never drinks coffee–a tat is kind of a big deal. My square life will get a little edge to it and I’m excited! I’m looking to make my appointment the day after so I don’t lose my nerve!
Because I am such a girl I am probably most excited to go shopping at the expo!! Last year this time I was inspired by this ginormous expo and now I get to experience it as an actual participant. I know I already want ALL the things but I really want a jacket and a pouch. The sneakers are extremely tempting as well!! I mean, don’t they just SCREAM Nellie?!?!
I’m a all of emotions but one feeling seems to rise to the top of them all and that is determined. In nine short days I am running my first marathon–lets do it!!