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This is 34.

by Nellie

Usually I’m not a birthday girl, like I’m not the type of person that forewarns people that my birthday is coming nor do I spend entire months celebrating my birthday. I never get mad at those who forget, or feel hurt if I don’t get a gift.

This is 34.

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This is 34. ❤️

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This birthday was significantly different however. So many things happened in 33. Things that were completed unexpected. Things that I didn’t even know could shake me swirled in and did just that. They broke me. And just like Humpty Dumpty I put myself together again. What I didn’t realize was that the new version of me was just that, new.

33 was hard on so many levels. I’ve never had to bury close family members–much less within six weeks of each other.

33 was scary because I knew I could no longer keep my happy AND work full time in the environment I was working in.

33 saw unknown courage. The brave that it took to quit my job was beyond what I ever knew could be possible. From a woman who vowed to never blog full time, here I was, taking a leap on myself. Starting my own business. Figuring it out. Making things happen. 33 I discovered so many new things but mostly resilience, confidence and belonging. I also learned how to quiet the naysayers.

33 also saw devastating heartbreak. The type that will have aftershocks for a long time into 34 and perhaps forever. The heartbreak elevated my friendships to the next level. Thankful for women that I can turn to, take to lunch, and hash things out. I’ve never had such a solid circle of women friends and I am so grateful for them. I hope one day I can be there for them in the same capacity.

Despite all of that, I am excited for 34. It’s the year where I’m starting to feel way more comfortable than ever in my own skin. Comfortable in my voice. Comfortable in my unique skill. Comfortable in my vast creativity. Comfortable in my likes and even more with my dislikes. People’s opinions are starting to matter less and less, and my internal voice is getting louder and louder.

34 is confident. It’s almost as if you start to see things a bit clearer with every year you grow older.
I am so thankful for 34.

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10 comments

CARLA February 6, 2017 - 5:30 am

SENDING YOU SO MUCH LOVE, Mama.
This is your year.
Your family’s year.
And we are just beginning to witness the powerhouse which is YOU.

xoxo

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Allie February 6, 2017 - 6:08 am

Hell YES to all of this and to YOU!!!! There is nothing like coming into your own and tuning into your voice and the power within you. I love reading this and knowing exactly what you’re talking about. Own it!!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

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Leslie February 6, 2017 - 6:46 am

Happy birthday again to you, sweet Nellie! I’m so sorry to hear that 33 was such a difficult year, even though you did some incredible things. Cheers to you, and here’s to an incredible 34!

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Janine Huldie February 6, 2017 - 6:57 am

Aw, you are truly amazing my sweet friend and just want to wish you a wonderful 34th birthday now. So much love and hugs and only the best to come this upcoming year for you!! <3

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Carly February 6, 2017 - 9:15 am

34 is also rocking a HOT dress!! 🙂 I hope 34 is your best year so far, you are such an inspiration to me, Nellie!

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Tamara February 6, 2017 - 10:47 am

Happy 34!!! We are both on the even number curve now – 34 and 36. I met you when you were 33 and I was 35! That was something really happy. You had such a year with ups and downs, and I love to watch you getting brighter!

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Kimberly February 6, 2017 - 11:40 am

Happy birthday, love! I can’t wait to spend some time with you in Miami in April. xo I hope you enjoyed your day.

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kita bryant February 6, 2017 - 4:49 pm

Happy Birthday! I am halfway to 40 and I am turning it up by doing things that are unexpected of me. Got the first email this morning that took that statement to a whole new level to.

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Nicole February 6, 2017 - 11:12 pm

Happy, happy birthday Nellie! Love this post. It sounds like you’ve grown a lot over the past year. Wishing you lots of love & happiness as a fabulous 34 year old! 🙂

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FaiTh February 11, 2017 - 7:44 am

Your 33 sounds like my 33 but like you I’m exited for 34. I feel like with 33 I became aware of who I am and what I really want.

Happy birthday to you! 34 is going to be an amazing year for you, i can feel it! You look amazing in that dress!

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