So, Zumba made me cry.
Who DOES that?
Who cries at Zumba?
I can’t with myself most days. Especially on this day.
This is how it all went down:
First let me say Fitbloggin is a trap. I thought I was going to come here and learn about weight loss, meet some bloggy crushes and workout! I did that. But I also did so much more. When I created my bucket list last year, I casually said that I wanted to be a spin instructor and a Zumba instructor. I did that when I was pregnant.
However, when I finally had the baby, and the weight stayed put…I was discouraged. Nothing was happening. Like, here I am, working out like a crazy person. And…nothing.
Not being happy with my body, not fitting into anything, not being where I was right before I got pregnant messed with my head.
“There is no way you can do this”
“Maybe when you get back to being 150, you can get your certifications”
“People are going to LOOK at you”
Fast forward to Fitbloggin, and I am ready to get my Zumba on! I had been looking forward to it since I heard it was on the agenda. Soo much so that I showed up insanely early so I can be in the front getting my Zumba fix.
|My Zumba fits!|
At that very same time, Sue aka MrsFatAss, one of our lovely instructors came in to set up and introduced herself to me. Which was amazing because some well known bloggers (not at Fitbloggin but rather BlogHer) don’t like to talk to the little guys. So needless to say I was thrilled to be talking to her. Somehow I started to spill my guts to her (this runs really rampant at Fitbloggin) about how much she inspires me to be a Zumba instructor, and the fears I have. She encouraged me to do it, not to worry about peeps, and just do it.
When she said it to much I kinda felt the dam crack a little, but whatever the dam cracks all the time, usually it just repairs itself.
I then proceeded to dance and Zumba my tooshie off. I wss having a blast and then something special happened. Sue and Sam proceeded to come down into the crowd, split us into two soul train style and grab us by the twos too dance down the soul train line. It was a seriously amazing moment. All of us, different races, sizes, cultures–dancing and cheering each other on.
When it was my turn Sue grabbed my hand and told me to “take my moment” And I danced, all the way down the line. Except by the time I reached the end of the line, I felt the dam break, and boom, I was ugly crying.
Again, I can not with myself.
It was like I felt something shift inside of me. I had unexpectedly arrived at a very happy place. I was doing something that made me feel alive, something that flicked on the switch of pure raw happiness.
My pastor did a series a few years back called finding your purpose. It was all about finding what God wants you to do. He said that your purpose is in your passion. Am I going to quit my job and become a Zumba instructor? No. I am however not going to let myself get in my own way and I will be registering for a Zumba cert class this week.
My dream is to bring health and wellness to the community with fun workouts like Zumba. Pastor said you know it’s your passion when you would do it for free, and that’s exactly what I want to do.
Check out video from our Zumba class at Fitbloggin12 (Hint: I’m the chocolate girl in the bright yellow in the front 🙂
Have you guys taken a really good fitness class lately?