Home about me That One Time I Cried At Zumba.

So, Zumba made me cry.

Who DOES that?

Who cries at Zumba?

I can’t with myself most days. Especially on this day.

This is how it all went down:

First let me say Fitbloggin is a trap. I thought I was going to come here and learn about weight loss, meet some bloggy crushes and workout! I did that. But I also did so much more. When I created my bucket list last year, I casually said that I wanted to be a spin instructor and a Zumba instructor. I did that when I was pregnant.

However, when I finally had the baby, and the weight stayed put…I was discouraged. Nothing was happening. Like, here I am, working out like a crazy person. And…nothing.

Not being happy with my body, not fitting into anything, not being where I was right before I got pregnant messed with my head.

There is no way you can do this

Maybe when you get back to being 150, you can get your certifications

People are going to LOOK at you

Fast forward to Fitbloggin, and I am ready to get my Zumba on! I had been looking forward to it since I heard it was on the agenda. Soo much so that I showed up insanely early so I can be in the front getting my Zumba fix.

My Zumba fits!

At that very same time, Sue aka MrsFatAss, one of our lovely instructors came in to set up and introduced herself to me. Which was amazing because some well known bloggers (not at Fitbloggin but rather BlogHer) don’t like to talk to the little guys. So needless to say I was thrilled to be talking to her. Somehow I started to spill my guts to her (this runs really rampant at Fitbloggin) about how much she inspires me to be a Zumba instructor, and the fears I have. She encouraged me to do it, not to worry about peeps, and just do it.

When she said it to much I kinda felt the dam crack a little, but whatever the dam cracks all the time, usually it just repairs itself.

I then proceeded to dance and Zumba my tooshie off. I wss having a blast and then something special happened. Sue and Sam proceeded to come down into the crowd, split us into two soul train style and grab us by the twos too dance down the soul train line. It was a seriously amazing moment. All of us, different races, sizes, cultures–dancing and cheering each other on.

When it was my turn Sue grabbed my hand and told me to “take my moment” And I danced, all the way down the line. Except by the time I reached the end of the line, I felt the dam break, and boom, I was ugly crying.

At, Zumba.

Again, I can not with myself.

It was like I felt something shift inside of me. I had unexpectedly arrived at a very happy place. I was doing something that made me feel alive, something that flicked on the switch of pure raw happiness.

My pastor did a series a few years back called finding your purpose. It was all about finding what God wants you to do. He said that your purpose is in your passion. Am I going to quit my job and become a Zumba instructor? No. I am however not going to let myself get in my own way and I will be registering for a Zumba cert class this week.

My dream is to bring health and wellness to the community with fun workouts like Zumba. Pastor said you know it’s your passion when you would do it for free, and that’s exactly what I want to do.

Check out video from our Zumba class at Fitbloggin12 (Hint: I’m the chocolate girl in the bright yellow in the front 🙂

FitBloggin 2012 – Zumba Class from Carrie Dallhoff on Vimeo.

Have you guys taken a really good fitness class lately?

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karenclanderson September 24, 2012 - 1:27 pm

And THAT is the power of Fitbloggin…I saw you Zumba-ing and was often trying to follow your lead. You're a natural! So go get it! 🙂

redstar5 September 24, 2012 - 4:38 pm

You were amazing at Zumba! When I couldn't see Sue or Sam for the steps I ha my eye on you in the front. I love so much the spirit of FitBloggin. I wish we had had a chance to chat! I will look forward to following your blog until next year!

@MrsFatass September 24, 2012 - 1:14 pm

Girl, now you've got ME doing the ugly cry. Will you come do a post on my blog sometime? I'd love to hear about your process getting your license.

You got this. Take your moment.

Miz September 24, 2012 - 1:22 pm

for so so so many reasons…


Wendy September 24, 2012 - 1:23 pm

I am SO SO SO in LOVE with this post.. SO IN LOVE and I know exactly what you mean. Here's my post about crying my damn eyes at at Spin class:
I've been off track and not motivated and feeling all down and out again, and you've just given me a lil spark to get my butt moving.
Thank you!

Kyra September 24, 2012 - 2:25 pm

You were fantastic Zumba-ing! I am so glad I got to meet you. Good luck following your dreams to become a Zumba instructor!!!

Kim September 24, 2012 - 2:52 pm

This s so wonderful. Very Happy you found your passion.

yumyucky September 24, 2012 - 3:08 pm

…and now my eyeballs are all watery & stuff. Listen to that inner voice and follow your passions. It was so great meeting you.
Until next time! xo

Laura September 24, 2012 - 8:29 pm

What a fantastic post! I came away pondering that same question about purpose and passion, and how those two go together. You have a wise pastor. I missed Zumba, but heard so many reports that it was incredible!

Carmen September 24, 2012 - 6:09 pm

You were so awesome! I love Zumba – and girl, you've GOT it going on!

See you next year?

@thegetfitdiva September 24, 2012 - 6:54 pm

You are AMAZING. I am so glad to have met you IRL. You have heart, soul, ANDDDDD you can dance your ASS off! I look forward to following your journey!

KalleyC September 25, 2012 - 12:33 pm

Beautiful post! I've had my moments during workouts, and most of my "ugly" moments are done at home with my girl asking me why I'm crying. Ugh.

I can totally see why anyone would cry at Zumba, it's exhilarating and liberating at the same time. I say take this calling and run with it. You never know where it will take you.

Mrs. Pancakes September 25, 2012 - 5:42 pm

I was thinking about you the other day as I was going for a walk how ANSI g you are…working out, babies, hubbies and work is no joke and all I am doing right now is baby:-) you are my role model!!!

bklynactivemama September 25, 2012 - 6:06 pm

I'm going to check it out! Thank you so much for stopping by we can totally do this together!!

bklynactivemama September 25, 2012 - 6:12 pm

Thank you! I love it so much!

bklynactivemama September 25, 2012 - 6:17 pm

thanks Kyra! I tried to follow you on GFC it wouldn't let me, I'll try again tomorrow!

bklynactivemama September 25, 2012 - 7:25 pm

hey josie!! It was really nice to meet you!! next time you come out and hang!!

This Cookn Mom September 25, 2012 - 3:29 pm

I want to try zumba soo bad! My friend raves about it!

Great post and your pastor is so right!

Losing in the City September 26, 2012 - 2:29 am

girlie, i am so happy and proud of you. i can't wait to attend your Zumba class. you can do this and you're going to be awesome. i expect to hear some soca in your Zumba class 🙂

Teems September 26, 2012 - 5:23 pm

I am so happy for you. I know this was your moment but your post spoke to me as well. "Purpose is in your passion." That was great advice. Thank you for sharing. Good luck!

Sherelle September 26, 2012 - 8:06 pm

I'm proud of all your hard work and your #fitblog motivational posts. I cry every time I hit the gym after being off for weeks and/or months.

Shauna September 27, 2012 - 2:08 pm

Hiya Nellie, loved this post! That was the most joyous crazyarse Zumba I've ever been to and I totally welled up in that track. Sue and Sam were such foxy rockstars up there and I just felt my heart crack open. Best of luck with your certification; I saw your moves from my hiding spot up the back row and I reckon your classes will be fab 🙂

Shani September 28, 2012 - 3:47 pm

Nellie, this story brought tears to my eyes. What an amazing moment you had and one of those kinds that will last a lifetime. You are truly blessed and living your life x100. An inspiration…

bklynactivemama September 29, 2012 - 7:29 pm

You need to go!! 🙂 You will never be the same LOL

bklynactivemama September 29, 2012 - 7:31 pm

Yes! let me know if you decide to do it!!

bklynactivemama September 29, 2012 - 7:33 pm

you are doing great by choosing low carb even though you cant do a lot of exercise. I completely agree with the Godincidences, that was certainly a beautiful moment for my spirit. thanks so much for dropping by!

debby9972 September 29, 2012 - 4:38 pm

I love when God does that. They are not coincidences they are Godincidences and you had one at Zumba.
Way to go and I wish you success. I struggle with my weight. I am older and have COPD. I am doing low carb but can't do a lot of exercise. Happy Saturday Sharefest!!!

@SheldaRaymonvil September 29, 2012 - 6:36 pm

I love this post and I love Zumba!!! I am also glad you heard that sermon preached by your pastor about finding your purpose. It's very encouraging to read posts such as these that encourages fitness and wellness. I was thinking about teaching Zumba and now I know it's possible! -From your fellow SITS girl

@SheldaRaymonvil September 29, 2012 - 6:37 pm Reply
prowessandpearls September 29, 2012 - 6:53 pm

Hi Nellie! I found you on SITS! Cute story…I have YET to try Zumba…I know, I know! Everyone has been telling me I should…I think I may be the last person on earth who hasn't. tried it, LOL! Anyway, just wanted to stop by and say hi! Have a great weekend!;-)

Lashawn September 30, 2012 - 4:45 am

What a beautiful moment!! You can do anything you put your mind to!!
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carolinecalcote October 19, 2012 - 2:24 am

Ack, you are freaking adorable. I love that I am STILL running across awesome Fitbloggin' posts a month later. Wish I had seen this one earlier! That was my first Zumba class and wow, what an experience. Love this post!

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Sam (Cuz) January 10, 2013 - 6:52 pm

Did I tell you about the one time i FELL at zumba? I never went back lolol

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Paula February 12, 2013 - 6:53 am

great blog, came over from SITS, come visit~ Paula

Tammy February 12, 2013 - 9:13 am

With God all things are possible! You go girl! Visiting from SITS. Have a fabulous day.

Sheila Skillingstead February 12, 2013 - 9:38 am

New mamas do cry. Before being new mamas, women cry. Let it out. Enjoy the dance. Loved the post. Have a great SITS Day.

04920218067592696311 February 12, 2013 - 9:41 am

Oh my, I have felt like crying at zumba, but mostly because I realize the image of myself as a wonderful dancer is SOOOOO wrong!!! 🙂 Happy SITS Day!

Rabia February 12, 2013 - 9:54 am

WOW! What an inspiring story! I think I would cry at Zumba too-but more out of pain and exhaustion. I could never do those moves!

misssrobin February 12, 2013 - 10:36 am

What a beautiful story. Thanks for sharing your moment with us. Best wishes as you work your Zumba magic!

Denise February 12, 2013 - 11:06 am

Happy SITS Day! I just look at gals doing Zumba and get tired.

Mothering From Scratch February 12, 2013 - 1:27 pm

{Melinda} So awesome! Don’t you love it when God puts just the right person in our path to encourage us as we pursue our dreams and passions! So proud of you for having the guts to go out there and go for it! 🙂

Happy SITS Day!

Kristiina February 12, 2013 - 4:14 pm

I am so happy it’s your SITS day! This is one of my favorite online spaces. That’s great that you were able to have such an emotional break through moment. Good for you!


Melissa February 12, 2013 - 5:27 pm

I’m so happy for you! It is such an awesome feeling to find a type of exercise that you absolutely love! I had the same feeling and reaction when I took my first CrossFit class over a year ago. I was hooked and shortly after, I became a coach. Happy SITS Day!

Stephanie February 12, 2013 - 9:41 pm

I tried zumba once, it kicked my butt!

Emily February 13, 2013 - 12:40 am

I’m so happy for you that you find your passion – it can be a long and frustrating journey at times. Dance is mine, but I haven’t been able to do it in a long time, as I’ve become a mother and moved away from my studio. I’ve been thinking for a while now that zumba might be a nice alternative – I need to give it a try!
Happy SITS day. 🙂

TheFoodnatic February 13, 2013 - 8:27 am

First off, Happy Belated SITS Day! Second…girl, been there… Sometimes we end up feeling like we need “permission” to feel things. And when someone gives it to us…lol…watch out! I’m glad you were able to give yourself that release! =)

Nellie February 21, 2013 - 11:43 am

You are very welcome, thank you so much for stopping by!

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