17 Weeks Postpartum
Since I have been back at work I have been having trouble focusing.
All of a sudden there is the challenge of balance and just not enough hours in the day.
I knew it would be different, granted, I had done this before…returning to work previously was not easy. As a matter of fact, when I returned to work after having my first son I did what I was doing now for 6 months. Sure, I went to the gym, often. But my eating was crazy and unconscious. I really just went to the gym for the break in the day, not necessarily to *work*.
Week three back at work and I have yet to find my routine, by the time I pick up the kids and come home, it’s nonstop. Packing bags, feeding dinner, cleaning, eating—-How do you mommies do it?! There has to be a trick that I’m missing!
It IS however, my responsibility to get back on the course. I am still working out, I was more focused last week than the week before. Unfortunately my eating is just blah. I am eating just to be full, or just because its lunch or dinnertime. Calorie counting? Non existent. My Fitness Pal? Catching dust.
I spent a little bit of time this weekend trying to figure out where things went wrong, obviously throwing work into the mix was a huge adjustment, but I also figured out that I lost something in my work return.
Even reading prior posts, I was so excited to continue this weight loss and go hard especially since summer was coming and all that. Now it’s like I’m stuck in some crazy cycle, where I am just going through the motions, trying to get to the next day.
I started this series to show my journey, the real and the uncut. This is the realest. I have been off kilter for about 2 weeks now, and it may take me a while to get back to where I was, but I will get there!
I will work on the following small changes over the next couple of weeks:
- Drink more water (I have completely dried up since returning to work!)
- Eat better, smaller meals
- Pay attention and focus on my workouts
o Complete them ALL (go 4-5x a week)
o Focus on keeping heart rate up
o Doing some things that are challenging and new but still staying conscious that I am still recovering from the c-section
o Take one day to just strength train, nothing else
I am planning on making some small changes right now, because I’m pretty sure that is the only way to get out of this funk.
I haven’t stepped on the scale in
forever three weeks. Every time I see it in the bathroom I weep a little try to gather the courage to get on. I’m still working on it.
Workouts this past week:
Monday : Running Freestyle (ran my first 8 minute stretch!)
Tuesday: 15 Minutes on Elliptical another 10 doing strength exercises (I had absolutely NO energy that day)
Friday: Freestyle Spinning 40 Minutes