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Road To The NYC Marathon: The One with the Jitters

by Nellie

Happy Friday yall!!

Seems like forever since I’ve done a Friday fitness update! It been a crazy month so far, including an incredible trip to Israel and so much more. Today however, we are talking about my first marathon. Happening in 9 days people. NINE DAYS.
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Training

It has been a tough month for training. I didn’t run in Israel–between the schedule, heat, and overwhelming desire to sleep because of the time difference it didn’t happen! IMG_5504
I have been running though. As much as my schedule lets me and I haven’t missed a long run! The Staten Island Half Marathon was the last race until the big one and it was not easy–but great training and I totally could have kept going when it was done so I took solace in that.

The feels.

All week I’ve been trying to figure out what I was going to write today. Would I write an excited post? Would I write a nail biting nervous nellie post? Would I write a post about how I am resisting the urge to hide in a closet on November first and conveniently emerge on November 2nd?
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Truth is I am all of those things. I vascilate between happy, scared, anxious, nervous pretty much every 20 seconds. My awareness level is on 120% because even on the off chance that I’m not thinking about it I have friends, family, coworkers who are asking me how I’m feeling pretty much every minute.
Then, I read this answer to someone asking about first marathon jitters (screen grabbed with permission) warning-language:
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Which made me cry, a lot, because I know I’m freaking out a lot and 99% of it is internal. It’s hard to tell people you are scared out of your mind and might have bitten off way more than you can chew. These words though, made me feel invincible and I know that all I have to do is try.
I know I will finish. I don’t know what time I will do it. To be honest I walked the last 2 miles of my 20 miler 2 weeks ago. Im not sure if this means I will walk the last EIGHT of the marathon but I will finish.

The reward

As a reward for running 26.2 I will be getting my first tattoo!! This is major. For a girl who doesn’t drink (at all), never smoked, never drinks coffee–a tat is kind of a big deal. My square life will get a little edge to it and I’m excited! I’m looking to make my appointment the day after so I don’t lose my nerve!

The expo

Because I am such a girl I am probably most excited to go shopping at the expo!! Last year this time I was inspired by this ginormous expo and now I get to experience it as an actual participant. I know I already want ALL the things but I really want a jacket and a pouch. The sneakers are extremely tempting as well!! I mean, don’t they just SCREAM Nellie?!?!t5m8n_0135_0010248315_f_l_primary
I’m a all of emotions but one feeling seems to rise to the top of them all and that is determined.  In nine short days I am running my first marathon–lets do it!!

How was your fitness and health week? Any advice for me?

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10 comments

Allie October 23, 2015 - 5:53 am

You are feeling all the NORMAL feelings of a first-time and even a 7 time marathoner like me. I’m excited, nervous, scared, happy, ready and so not ready all within the same 5 minutes. Totally normal.
You cannot control what happens on race day with your body but you can control your mind and the way you talk to yourself. YOU WILL FINISH and that is truly all that matters. Try to remember why you started this journey and why you wanted to start running. Give yourself credit for how far you have come and all you have overcome. The only person’s opinion that matters on this race is YOURS. This is the time to be selfish. It also helps me when I think about my boys after a race. They couldn’t care less if I won or never finished – they love me and are excited to see me no matter what.
I sincerely hope I can give you the biggest hug at some point next weekend. I have so much faith in your strength Nellie and I will be cheering you and clearing a path for you in that marathon – all you have to do is follow me! xoxo

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Janine Huldie October 23, 2015 - 6:55 am

First off, I hope you know how amazing I think you are and I know you are nervous, but still I have so much faith in you and totally know you got this! That said, I want those sneakers, too and I don’t even run 😉

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Renee October 23, 2015 - 9:39 am

there is nothing like the first marathon. and it will be amazing. it will suck. you will think WTF more than once. and you will find yourself with the biggest grin on your face and not realise it’s been like that for MILES. and you will finish because you always finish! and then you will probably cry. That chest-shaking sort of cry (that I’m getting right now thinking about my first marathon and actually my last because I still can’t believe it). and then you will be one of the small percentage of people who complete such an amazing accomplishment!!!!

and guess what, just today I got my 1st marathon tattoo! I have other tattoos but this is the first in about 9 years and it probably has the most significance! So ROCK ON with that marathon tattoo!!

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Kimberly October 23, 2015 - 10:02 am

I’m getting so excited for you! I know so many first time marathoners running this race and they have all the same feels! I’ll be volunteering and screaming my head off for all the runners at Mile 18 and ant wait to see you!

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Aliah October 23, 2015 - 3:16 pm

YOU ARE AMAZING. I kinda just want to write that and submit but by you sharing your journey you have inspired and helped so many including me (the non-runner). This is such an exciting time for you and hold up…a tattoo! I’m scared of you! I have none so I will be living vicariously through your ink-age. While you are running your marathon (get it get it!), I will be running, walking, shuffling, army crawling over the finish line for my first half-marathon and thinking of Nellie who, a bridge and tunnel, away is crossing a finish line and fulfilling a dream! GO HARD NELLIE!

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Tamara October 23, 2015 - 5:27 pm

Those sneakers are amazing.
Advice for you? Well, that’s like how I was before shooting weddings – so many emotions. So scared. So biting off more than I could chew.. but also not. Also TOTALLY made for me.
So I will say to ride these waves of emotions, and know, that this is really living. Really living is not a glossy movie. It’s scared and angry and gassy and whatever else. It’s sad and happy and amazing. (I don’t know why I said gassy but it always makes Scarlet giggle)
You have SO got this.

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Wendy October 23, 2015 - 9:30 pm

You GOT this! And I’d so buy the shoes. I would.

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KyannaSimone October 24, 2015 - 11:24 am

Girl, you’re going to have an amazing time at the marathon! I can’t wait for you to run and enjoy yourself. I can’t say what it’s going to feel like because I myself haven’t ran a marathon yet but YOU’RE GOING TO KILL IT!!

And Yes, those sneakers are EVERYTHING. I need them myself.

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Katie- Hungry Runner October 25, 2015 - 10:54 am

Ahh! I totally remember feeling this way at this time last year, but Amy’s comment sums everything up perfectly. I’m so excited for everyone who is running this year, especially first-timers, because it’s such a blast and even though yes, it’s hard, it’s so freakin’ worth it! I am so looking forward to cheering you on and everyone else on next Sunday! I’m sending good luck vibes your way 🙂

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Leslie October 28, 2015 - 9:33 pm

Who cares what anyone else thinks? You should be so proud of yourself for this whole journey. You deserve whatever treat you want to give yourself for finishing this race…after a nice long nap. Can’t wait to see the new ink!

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