So as I approach my ninth month of pregnancy I’m beginning to realize that I am about to be a real mom.
Well weren’t you a real mom before?
Of course. Being a first time mommy is awesome, when you learn the fun tricks of quieting a cranky, colicky newborn, and you learn how to puree veggies and fruits, AND how to somehow keep the dishes clean while doing all of the above– you are winning.
The first year of mommyhood is exhausting, jarring and most times…exhilarating. but now, with a second boy on the way, I’ve got a little voice in my head asking…
Can you handle this?
So you mean to tell me that you are going to manage a 2 year old and an infant? AT THE SAME TIME?
Are you seriously prepared to wake up every hour tending to babies needs?
Are you ready to be confined daily to your home during the long winter months with your only companions being a baby and lots of spitup?
And the answer is unequivocally … No!
Every first time mommy becomes quickly familiar with their child. They learn their habits, likes and dislikes. I feel like I know my son so well now that I can blog a bit while he plays with his cars. I know him. Will I be able to maintain that connection to him when baby boy 2 comes? Will I be so zoned into him that I lose the original connection with boy 1?
Will I be a real mommy? Juggling focused eyes behind my head? Can I make boy1 not miss his mommy while I tend to boy2?
These are the questions that cause my heart to race a bit faster, and my palms to get all clammy.
I know there is an adjustment period for all of us. But the unknown is just about to drive me mad!