No matter what IT is just keep pushing.
It’s no secret that this marathon training is crazy challenging for me. As I wrote on Friday, I am unable to deal with how hard it is and how badly I want to quit.
Two days ago, I went out for my long run–despite the terrible training week I had and even worse long run of 14 miles last weekend. I didn’t even sleep properly because I was so anxious about doing 15 miles when I had to drag myself to complete 14 last week. This time around I’d have another race sandwiched in between so I was not looking forward to it at all.
Surprisingly, the opposite happened. I felt pretty good throughout. I started with a 2 mile warm up through Times Square at 7am (which was pretty cool considering that the tourists weren’t too bad) so by the time I got to Central Park I had 3 minutes for my race to start and I felt good–nothing hurt and all the kinks were out!
As I stood in my corral I earhustled a fun conversation with a woman and a married couple that seemed to have been in the same running club. I took a quick glance at the woman and noticed that she was drenched–like me–except it looked like she had done a lot more miles than I did. She mentioned how hard it was to train for a marathon and because this was her third it was over and done. THEN she mentioned how hard it was to train for two marathons in one year. WHAT?!
This woman ranted and raved about the trials of marathon training and it was like I was hearing my own self speak. It was surreal to hear her struggles because they were exactly my own. I turned around and nodded with her in agreement several times and I mentioned that I would be right there with her when she said she’d be “plodding along” at the marathon. It made me realize two things–I am not alone in this crazy up and down marathon journey and two–anything that you really want is worth fighting for. 100%.
The conversation stayed with me for the rest of the race and the long run beyond. It made think of the many, many things that I have wanted BADLY and had to work REALLY hard to get. My house, my degrees, my job, this blog–so many things that I consider accomplishments had an extreme labor of love attached to them. It took six long months to close on my home–Several times through the process I simply thought it wasn’t happening anymore. We even started looking at other houses–it was crazy.
Comparing all of the trials and the crazy of my life to the current trials and crazy of marathon training makes me realize that there isn’t much difference. There will ALWAYS be challenges in something that you want really badly–it is just how it is. All the hard work leads to serious reward. As I ran on Saturday, feeling amazing and hitting mile paces I haven’t seen since April–I remembered what sparked me to run a marathon in the first place. I want to run all five boroughs and high five random people. I want to raise money for the children at the Ronald McDonald House. I want to prove to myself that I can do this. I want to be a marathoner.
Whatever it is that you are pushing towards right this moment, keep pushing. Always keep pushing. Try not to let the trials overwhelm you (like they did me) because your breakthrough could be right around the corner. Whatever your dream is, keep moving, keep making progress, keep inching closer.