14 Weeks Postpartum
I am trying to run.
I am running.
I am doing the Couch 2 5k Program for the third time.
First time I did it! I completed it. I had a hard time on the treadmill, but once I completed it, I went 5k Crazy and ran about 8 5k’s and one 4M during the spring/summer of 2007 before I got married.
Unfortunately I loved it SO much that I over trained. I was running for 60-90 minutes a day, everyday, without any other training or rest days. My knee became messed up and I stopped running. I missed it.
I also lost my running mojo with it.
The second time was last year. I had a really hard time completing the early weeks, I was so frustrated with how bad I was, compared to how I was years ago. I was in better shape, I weighed less, yet I was having a really hard time struggling. Running three minutes was like torture and I was pretty much forcing myself to do it.
Come to find out I was pregnant with my second boy, which was contributing to my tiredness and overall physical decline. I stopped week three.
No mojo to be found. HELLO MOJO? Will you come by for a visit? I miss you!
So now, I have started again. I am managing a lot better than last time, and I am actually about to hit week 4. I still have no mojo, I am just getting through it, and when I look at the week ahead I have little to no confidence.
Until a few days ago.
I went to Jack Rabbit, which is a REALLY popular running store in NYC. I went for a new pair of running sneakers because I knew my
3 year old really old shoes were doing nothing to help my ankles or my form. They watched me run on the treadmill and got me the perfect pair to correct my slanted ankles.
However, the entire store was FILLED with mojo! It was everywhere! Draped on the running clothes, displayed freely on the bulletin board stacked with races. Everyone who came in started their sentences with “I’m training for the half this May…” “I’m in need of some new shoes for the 10k I’m doing next month…” Mojo. Everywhere.
eavesdropped casually listened to one sales rep tell her story I was completely intrigued and I think I even felt a little mojo jump into me.
She said she was really overweight and not active at all. One day she started running. She said when she started she couldn’t barely make it for half a block. She then explaining that within a year she was running a half, then another, then a marathon. Talk about mojo! All of a sudden, I was beginning to feel more optimistic.
I have always been intimidated by running, but I remember clearly from 2007, the sheer joy of crossing the finish line. I wasn’t the fastest (no where close) but I always finished and that is where the mojo comes in.
Mojo = the confidence to complete and achieve any challenge presented. (taken from the Brooklyn Active Mama Handbook)
As I attempt to regain my mojo, my biggest challenge will be quiet that little voice that usually says something along the lines of “hell naw, not today!” or “Look! there is a free elliptical machine!” I want to progress and surpass where I was in 2007. I will find my mojo along the way, but right now I am still looking. I will keep training, close my eyes to the weeks ahead and run a few races this spring.
I didn’t weigh in this week. I decided to give the scale a rest this week. I did try on some suits for church today and one of them fit, which was awesome since it didn’t fit 3 weeks ago.
Workouts this week:
Saturday: Spinning & Kettlebells
Monday: C25k Week 3 Day 1. Kettlebells
Tuesday: 20 on the stair climber 30 spinning
Wednesday: C25k Week 3 Day 2, 15 Elliptical
Thursday: Total Body Class (full body strength workout)